Life Paths

-wild natural grass VS civlized plastic grass-

My baby girl´s story begins long before she was born, in the far past of my childhood, when I used to wonder about life and all… For I had always felt deeply connected with the Nature, I have been questioning a lot the way of life of the grown-ups and could not understand their rush and ignorant way of living. Myself, alternating and experimenting different approaches on life, I had though kept inside my heart the feeling that was something strange about the civilized societies and could not eliminate that instinctual believe whatsoever.

I did followed my heart as a youth and went on with love into a relationship with the father of my oldest son, despite the recommendations of all the grown-ups around that I should better go on with the path to success aiming for carrier and wealth fulfillment. Funny enough, I could never consider that type of realization as appropriate for my kind, so I quitted school without regrets and lived happily with my dear son and his father. Still, after a few years, I could not find satisfaction any longer in the standard routine of our home and dreamed on far, far away horizons waiting to be discovered…

In my life, all that I wished for have always become, so I wished to explore the big world out there. Than me and the father of my child split our paths and I went to Spain to my parents´place interested in checking out the modern life of the western society, that was promising to provide resources to finance my dreams…

I tried to continue the school and to have fun as my folks were giving their support in these matters, but very soon I discovered there was no joy for me to find in the trivial struggle of the common citizen. I started to become unhappy ... I often felt the impulse to just go away and loose myself in the night, walking towards unknown destinations, without desires nor plans, caring nothing but my body. I did not wished to wish for anything anymore, but to flow and let the life surprise me…I could see my journey as a vagabond, with no target, but not lost, living present in the present, searching nothing but the pure enjoyment of life. But my son could not be dragged in my own vision, so I thought about trying some sort of a middle way that would help me reconnect with myself and the free life spirit and he could grow happy and healthy, experimenting different alternative lifestyle so he could make his own choices and find his way.

I left that spring and, upon researching different places that were offering natural life possibilities, we discovered peace and harmony in the autumn in the valley of a free community in Andalucia. I lived with my son there the winter we stepped in 2012 in a small handmade house, with rich food garden and bee hives around.

It was then and there I met the father of my daughter. We felt deeply connected and resonated in a beautiful way, happy to discover we were sharing similar view on life and could find joy in the simple things… In spring, came my son´s father and invited him to spend some time together, so he left with him.

Me and my lover started a beautiful journey through Europe. We went on a visit to one of my dearest soul-sisters in the north of the continent and for a while we camped inside the anarchist state of Christiania, where we acquired a 3 wheel cargo bike we used as a vehicle part of the travel.

There, the baby came into my body. We arrived above the Arctic Circle after 6 weeks on the road. My lover lived for 3 years in a hand made house in the forest outside the city. It was April when we got there and some of the small houses needed to be repaired after not being inhabited during the last winter, so we had a lot of fun building mainly with natural materials and biking to town, bringing as many windows as we could fit in the box of the bike for there were thrown lots by the consumers of the nordic society.We made a garden in the forest village and we had couch-surfers visiting and being nice surprised by the possibility of living like that. Children from the nearby neighborhood were often visiting, envying our freedom and journalists promoted the idea that anyone was welcomed to join for it was always a house to host anyone and a warm fire and food to share, same as in the Rainbow inspired valley where me and him met.

-we do not cut the forest, we only used dead trees and sticks from the ground-

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Soon we discovered there was new life growing inside of me and because our whereabouts were way to famous and close to the town, we went on exploring the depth of the scandinavian forests and, arriving on the top of a hill, we both felt there was the perfect place to welcome our child into this world. We could see the ocean at the horizon and fresh water was flowing at the base of the hill, all surrounded by wilderness, a few kilometers from the closest neighborhood. We started to build a home there, my lover carried till up the hill an iron stove to burn wood and cook on, we used holly plastic on the roof and covered it with tree branches, the dome structure was made of wood, with two floors, a basement where we stored food we conserved during autumn and we isolated the walls with sticks, cardboard and several layers of cotton. We had really comfortable times there, though my lover spent a lot of time carrying and cutting wood and declared he had never saw himself so strong as than, I conserved fermented vegetables and dryed fruits on the oven and we peacefully lived there the autumn and the winter.

Just before the controversial solstice of 2012, our baby girl came out to this world, right in the hands of her father. There was -15 degrees outside and aurora borealis was dancing in the sky, it was +30 degrees in our home and gentle candle light welcomed the little being into our life. It was a day long labor and we were prepared to contact a family that were good friends and were living in the closest neighborhood if anything would have not gone well with the birth. But all went good and she was born that night with only us to meet, instead of the standard procedures, strong artificial lights and abrupt cutting of the umbilical cord that I experienced giving birth to her brother in the hospital. We kept the placenta attached until it fall by itself 3 days later, we washed her with pure spring water we have heated on our very efficient wood-burner and we used only towels under her or cotton diapers that we washed and boiled daily.

We left the forest after she was about 1 month old and went to town to register her birth for after having debated it over and over again among each other and also with close friends, we got to the conclusion that having the document that would confirm her existence would make our lives easier to move around in this bureaucratic world. There is a human right that says nobody can be forced into joining a group or organization, so we thought that sovereignty would be respected, but than we´ve been told that the Child Protection Gestapo of the state where we were is demanding that any new-born to receive a personal number and they threaten to remove the child from his parents care if they do not follow the law. The famous Barnevarnet is responsible for very many ruined families, unhappy childhoods, they treat abusive the foreigners´ families, ignoring differences of culture, they also received lots of critics and fines for the past years from the UN Human Rights Committee and their actions have been mentioned in the media as ¨state sponsored kidnapping¨ … So we meet with 2 employers of this so called child protection( one of them did not speak english and still was sent to meet and talk with me, a foreigner, and understand my explanations….) and we debated a few aspects that seemed to be of their concern, like how do I keep the baby warm while in the city if I do not have a baby trolley - I was holding my baby girl close to my heart, in a wrap around my body, now became very popular and even recommended this practice, promoted by the psychologists and pediatricians supporting the so called Attached Parenting…

Or it was funny to hear they were asking us if she will go to school, while she was only a month old and none of us can see into the future… We are aware though that children must be educated into obedience before starting to attend the state education for if they cannot sit still while getting bored at some lesson,here, same as in U.S., there will be measures to be taken that include administration of ADHD drugs, in order to ¨fix¨ the child´s temper, make it easy for the ignorant teachers to pass on the unnecessary information that they themselves do not believe in, and make happy the pharmaceutical corporations...

But in our case, they had to admit our knowledge and quality standards were not below the health and care requirements and our interest in the proper development of our child was very high, our choices for her exclusive breastfeeding and natural fibers clothing, as well as the use of only organic food and products, also having raised another child that is all healthy and perfectly social and capable of any sort of action necessary for life in the society, so they did not go on with their inquiries.

So we went to the institution that takes care of turning humans into number series and asked them for the form to fill in necessary to register our daughter as a citizen of that state, but they denied to give us the paper, thinking that must be filled in by a medical official, so we went to the clinic with our baby, they also checked on her stated concluding she was perfect, they made an appointment for us with a doctor that was supposed to be the one to sign the register paper, 2 weeks later we met him and after his professional opinion concerning the baby was again of perfect development, he told us that he was not the one to be able to give us the paper, for it has been us all along that needed to fill in the form, as we suspected from the start, since it was only us witnessing her birth. So we finally got to fill in and send the document and waited for the resolution of the bureaucracy in our case.

Meanwhile, my son was in a very confusing situation, I could not travel to meet him since summer and I was expecting him while being pregnant to arrive by our side, but unfortunately, because certain members of his father´s family had constantly criticized my decision to split of his father and my way of life, he had to listen to this people´s hatred and ignorant remarks almost every day and… did not wanted to come where we were. His father did not did anything to stop the mean gossips that were poisoning my son´s heart and so the child disagreed to fly to the north and join us until he found out he has a sister. I skyped with him all along and one day I introduced to him his sister, of whom he did not knew while I was pregnant, so that explained him why I could not fly myself to him, to shut the mouths of the evil-speakers and take him from the unhappy vibes. Than he agreed to come and meet us, but not in the north, for he had been told I live as a savage in the jungle and the image he had in his mind was far from what was our reality, but difficult for him to understand, so he wanted to come to the community where we lived before, in the south of Spain, where he could recall happy memories and peaceful natural life that was not wild in the same time… So we had to travel south in order to meet him, his father was on his way to some other foreign lands for working contract, so we needed to rush into meeting my kid.

We waited for the papers for my daughter to be ready, but it seemed to take much more than we expected, so we decided to go anyway and have them delivered to where we will arrive after.

-The Holly Spring- one of the water sources of the community-good, tasty, healthy-

And when we were already happy living all together back in Andalucia, an e-mail from the state register office came demanding us to provide genetic probes in order to be tested for the authenticity of our mother-daughter relation. We were so far away and tried to explain the circumstances, plus we could not understand why was that required since we had struggled to have the birth certificate done since the baby was about one month old and there is a term of 4 weeks to do the registration. It was not our fault for the officials took longer time to provide the right form and to deal with the case. Even so, even we brought on various other types of evidence, like the umbilical cord, witnesses and photos from before, during and after birth, they only wanted the DNA test. The institution they wanted us to deliver our probes to was founded and financed by the Rokefeller Foundation (Folkehelseinstituttet), reason for which we denied to deliver the samples of our daughter´s DNA to them, asking if there is possible to do the test through another institution. A lawyer working for a famous lawyer firm, contacted us suddenly and offered his help with our case, he was also a volunteer for the Save the Children organization and claimed he will contact the authorities that demand for the test and help us receive the approval to do the test through another private clinic. And he asked us to sign a paper where we give him the right to represent our daughter´s cause and our case in official circumstances. We did as he said and than waited for his resolution, but the contact with him started to fade away, he was not responding our e-mails and he was never having obtained any answer from the state officials.

So it passed manny months and we moved to living in Portugal:

Starting to get paranoid about the whole story, we decided to travel north and meet the lawyer who was no longer answering our e-mails, even when we asked him of his opinion about us coming back to the state where our baby was born and if there should be any concerns for our family integrity and our daughters security from the child protection, still he was giving no sign.

When we first came back to the nordic country we left more than a year before, we went to find the lawyer, after he answered one time the phone and hearing who was calling, he claimed it was bad connection and hang up, he did not picked up our calls anymore.

So we searched for him at the company where he was employed, but we had no answer at the inter-phone, nor when calling directly at the door and waiting in front of the camera to be welcomed inside, nobody answered us. Interesting symbols decorating the building brought even more suspicions to us…

We went than at the Save the Children organization to ask for the lawyer and there he was, kind of shocked of our presence there, mumbling some explanations about how he never got any answer from the state about our demand to do the DNA testing with another institution, and when we demanded he cancels the document that was making him our daughter´s legal representative, waiting for quarter of hour there, he came with the answer that he does not have it with him, that it might be home… We had to insist there is something to be done and we came up with the idea that we could obtain from him a new document where he declares the other one is no longer valid and he ceases to be dealing with the case. We also informed him that we ourselves contacted the state registering office and they immediately agreed with our proposal to not use the foundation that was initially recommended to us for the DNA test, which seemed to surprise him somehow.

We followed the steps they communicated to us and went to a clinic, where a doctor took the probes from me and my daughter and sent them to the DNA researching institution that we got in contact, we had to pay quite a big amount of money for it, but the results confirming our genetic relation came very fast so we sent them further to the state registering office, only to be answered that the doctor was not an official representative to take the probes and that we need to redo the whole process. We decided to travel to the far north and go to the office from the city where we first went to register our new born. We asked the employer that first denied to give us the right form to fill in and triggered the whole delay and complications, to make a phone call and get the direct approval to be the one taking the probes from me and my daughter as an official representative. Than it was all right. We payed again for this other test and sent it and had it approved. In 2014.

My long story had all these adventures for the fault of a system that claims to function for everybody, but if one is not inside the assumed standards of common lifestyle, it might get more complicated. Many told me it would have not been so difficult if I would have just given birth in the hospital, like that is something I must do, not my free choice… I had also encountered complications in my life for not having a credit card or a bank account. I have never had one and I would hope to never have to have one, though the society I live in right now seems to be unable to work for the ones that do not contribute to the banking system, cash almost disappears and so does other freedoms. The taxes we pay we cannot choose what will those money be used for so when I am buying or owning anything I am NOT free to NOT finance the wars killing innocent people from other countries and cultures. The children themselves are not free to choose if they even want to belong to a certain state and to obey the rules and laws they could not understand. If someone did not even read the rules of the game they are forced into playing, how can they take responsibility for their actions?

The so called democratic societies are hiding their oppressive, totalitarian reality behind the illusion of freedom….

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-wild natural grass VS civlized plastic grass- My baby girl´s story begins long before she was born, in the far past o...

...I once believed in freedom. The only real boundaries acknowledged here were supposed to be the limits of my body. The world is though composed of different types of accepted matrices and it is demanded to belong to one of them. That for its own survival, not mine, for its continuity, not my choices, for why change a winning team? Well... Because there is nothing to win, all profit goes to the organizers and the participants are tricked by the illusion of fame and the thrills of competing.
I once believed the societies are made for our better administration of our abilities and resources. I thought we want to have it nice... I believed the civilized world represents indeed the evolution on this planet. Maybe I was wrong assuming it heads towards prosperity and happiness for all beings. I see the slavery that has always been so typical to our race... Applying it to the ones of our kinds. I mean to all the nature around...I guess we forgot we are a fragment of the whole and everything is connected. So it's more like putting a string around our own legs or eating our own eyes... Is this how we are progressing?

I once believed in the objectivity, in the fair and just interaction, but we learn everyday on TV how to not trust each other. And how could we trust someone that takes care with love and devotion of another living creature to end up slaughtering and consuming its flesh? How could we trust someone that talks about freedom to our children in classes and demands them to answer when they are asked and prove they can reproduce what they have been told they should know? With the children it begins the end of freedom. With the most pure and free ones. So they can grow and perpetuate this freedom inside the golden cage, like the dog happy to get some rests of people's meals in exchange of fulfilling with their demands and stay in leash...maybe the dog would find a better meal and more comfortable shelter and enjoy his time in this world administrating his own life, so did we just sold our lives in exchange of the promise to get daily meals and shelter? Is it even any real security in this? What if the master replaces his dog with a gadget application one day? Is it he dog really living his life or is it only serving in order for the master to enjoy his time in this world?

There has been researches showing the power of the wild food compared with the industrial grown , all controlled and regulated foods we are feeding our bodies. There is psychological researches talking about the progress of our brains while stimulated by new challenges, by living without fixed schedule and obviously, to think for yourself instead of following orders would be more likely to survive in any situation, still nowadays challenges are of virtual matter... Having a society of wealthy, all capable individuals would eliminate the reason to have governments and controlling layers in the society. Why would they agree with the freedom of chances? There would be no more "they" if the children would be shown how to think and find solutions more than what to think and what to apply in standard procedures. And because we need the creative minds and the repressed personal dreams, the society claims as progress a new furniture design, giving kudos to the individual and inviting to become better in fields that actually make no real impact in the evolution on this planet. Or are you not wondering why the inventors of free energy generators are not being as popular as a hairstylist?
So many of the people would agree with me that the world we live in is not very nice and functional for everybody, that the capitalism is the new religion and that to have it better one can only aspire to become one of those that rule over the rest... What is ignored is the possibility to have it different...

Some say that I take away the real possibilities for my kid to become someone...I would say the possibilities for him to be in the front line of this suicidal society... For he has rights to be part of something he has no idea what is all about, blinded by the shiny toys of McDonald's while swallowing some proper food...for I had been blamed of keeping him unfed for I choose organic, vegan, local, seasonal food instead of products made by ingredients that nobody have heard of. For, as I was saying...the traditional way is the only way... And what the master gives to the dog is the only think nature has, and his real nature was lost while his puppies were raised in cages as employers... I had been criticized also that I did not took the child to school because, after 4 years of participating in the official state education in 3 different countries, me and my son choose for him to try instead home schooling. My son have daily studies of many fields ... He reads and writes in 4 languages, does geometry and arithmetics, studies human body' s anatomy and world geography, he is doing arts, plays instruments and sports and spends the rest of the time using his body climbing trees, biking or exploring and having fun with the kids in the area... His entire time is administrated by himself and he is aware of what and why he is learning anything, in his own rhythm and coming to me to share his new knowledge or debate curiosities he has encountered while studying... Many people around me said I had been to school and it was all right, but I see things changing every year...and at least the reasons I was attending there were to study and learn from someone that was spending the time bringing the information to the children, I also had the luck to be inspired by open minders and not square thinking teachers... What I see now in the schools is only a place where youth can socialize using trivial possessions and appearance, practicing the future superficial relations between busy important owners of stuff...for our children are educated into finding happiness in having things and comfort, and power and value in the shopping centers... Where they all meet and talk about objects that represents their souls....
In the end... I do not like to criticize, I do not enjoy complaining and I would not even care so deeply if I would have not been directly affected by these perspectives on the common reality... But I learn, I grow, I become the best version of myself thanks to all the experience I encounter...
I will at the end master patience, acceptance and humbleness, I will keep myself open to any possibility and don't be sure of anything... I do not claim having the ultimate knowledge neither the best way of living, but I pray for freedom and hope we can use the experiences here to develop each individual without demanding the others to fulfill with one self's tyranny!

...I once believed in freedom. The only real boundaries acknowledged here were supposed to be the limits of my body. The world is...

I grew up in a mountain town. I grew up enjoying to walk bare-feet, to hug or climb the trees and to chant along with the birds´ songs or the river´s whispers. I grew up holding on to the natural inspiration that was leading me on my way, until I felt there was something strange about the grown-ups...it seemed to me most of them have lost it...I am talking about that inspiration, that native, intuitional, divine connection. So I concluded the self-mutilation is produced in the process of growing-up and decided not to perform it, but to keep on awake and patient at the suggestions of my immortal inner child. Than I stopped growing into the eternal rushed and stressed adult and only expanding my imagination. I din´t thought than that my future will be made of grown-ups and among them I am supposed to live same life as they consider is fitted for me. Cause of course, I could not just feel it, I had to pass it all through analytic, rational filters and than embrace the new destiny proud to be included into their orgy as if it would have been the hand of nature...but I also felt the signs of possible unhappy future, so the joyful vibes of the child inside became the language of the universe and taught me how to open my heart to feel and my mind to understand. The young I advised myself to doubt anything, hence anything is possible and to stick to my path without shoes and my ears uncovered to catch the meanings of the waters, winds and forest creatures. I might have been brought on the right track(how my mamma likes to call it) by some grown-ups that grew so much that they rise above the jungle and make their path through life making paths where once stood trees...but the wilderness hiding inside my soul spoke louder to me and I cared for life...I grew a deep forest.

Now my Self is dreaming on that simple joy, pure waters, green land and blue skies. Neverland is far far away...

I grew up in a mountain town. I grew up enjoying to walk bare-feet, to hug or climb the trees and to chant along with the birds´ s...

SHARING HERE MY VIEW ON REALITY, WHICH IS OF COURSE SUBJECTIVE, THOUGH IT IS PART OF THE BIG PANORAMA …WHICH IS WHAT WE PROJECT AND UNIFY TOGETHER … BUT IS FRAGMENT OF THE WHOLE AND THAT BE CONSCIOUS OF! FOR ALL IS CONNECTED!

- THAT IS WHAT I FEEL AND THINK, SO MUST EXIST INDEED SAME AS I EXIST ;)

I SEE THE WORLD IN FUTURE HARMONY - THAT IS THE RESONANT LIFESTYLE, WHERE THE HUMAN FREQUENCY IS DANCING ON NATURAL FLOWING WAVES WITH THE REST OF THE BIG PICTURE AND THE BOND SHOWS WELL FUNCTIONING OF LIFE , THIS GREAT INTERCOURSE BETWEEN MAN AND NATURE ( LIVING BEING AND THE UNIVERSE) WOULD LEAD ON THE PERPETUATION OF THIS LIFE THROUGH LIFE IN THE RHYTHM OF SPIRAL PROGRESS ; IT WOULD RISE IN PROSPERITY AND FALL INTO THE EMBRACE OF SOME EXCITEMENT, DEPENDING ON/OF THIS WHOLENESS AND DIFFERENCES IN THE WAVES , CURVES , LENGHT AND RYTHM , THE SPECTRUM OF SPEED AND TIME, OPPOSITE POLES OR WAYS OF ENERGY-MATTER MANIFESTATION. THERE WOULD BE THE TONE THAT IS IN EVERYTHING … AND THAT KEEPS VIBRATING FRIENDLY TO THE WELL BEEING OF ITS CREATION - THAT IS LIFE ITSELF.

SO LETS SAY HERE ON EARTH WE CHANGE THE WAY CIVILIZED WORLD VIEWS THE REALITY- THAT WOULD BE CHANGING ONESELF, THE INDIVIDUAL PERCEPTION-CREATION. INSTEAD OF TREATING IT LIKE WE ARE A WHOLENESS OF SUPERIOR LEADING CONSCIOUSNESS AND THE REST OF THE REALITY IS FOR US TO SERVE OF…WE COULD CONSIDER OURSELVES PARTS OF THE REALITY AND THE WORLD A COMMUNITY OF CREATURES ALL SIGNIFICANT FOR THE ENTIRE STORY… THIS FUTURE IS VERY POSSIBLE WITH NOWADAYS EXPANSION OF THE CONSCIOUSNESS PEOPLE IS EXPERIENCING, EGOES ARE TEMPERED DOWN AND CURIOUS MINDS ARE OPENING … WE LET OURSELVES FLOW ALONG WITH LIFE THROUGH THE VEINS OF UNIVERSE …

ENVIRONMENT WOULD BECOME A CONCERN OUT OF LOVE FOR LIFE , NOT FEAR OF SELF-DESTRUCTION (PARADOX? ) AND EVERYBODY´S WELLNESS WOULD BE THE GENERAL STATE.

BUT HOW TO GET FROM NOW TILL… THERE?

WE ARE AN AMOUNT OF PEOPLE ACTING AS INDIVIDUAL PARTS THAT CLAIM THEY ARE WHOLES… HHMMM…SOME CALL IT RACES, SPECIES, OTHERS CALL THESE SEPARATIONS RELIGION OR LANGUAGE…SOME CAN NAME IT CULTURAL DIVERSITY…IF WE TAKE INSPIRATION FROM THE BIGGER SPHERE OF CLASSIFICATION, THERE IS THE BIO-DIVERSITY OF THE NATURE , AND EVEN BEYOND … PLANETS AND NO-PLANETS…IS, ARE, OF MANY KINDS AND PURPOSES…AND WHY TO BELIEVE THAT THE PURPOSE IS POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE? PURPOSE IS.

SHARING HERE MY VIEW ON REALITY, WHICH IS OF COURSE SUBJECTIVE, THOUGH IT IS PART OF THE BIG PANORAMA …WHICH IS WHAT WE PROJECT AND UNIFY T...